So I totally KNEW that Mercury was doing a backwards march through all of our lives, if your not down with the astrology of things then I will drop some info on ya’..

Mercury rules communication and when it goes retrograde things get bumpy – meaning what we hear and see is usually different from what is meant to be understood.  For each of us, depending on our signs (and personalities) we are effected differently – if we have mastered our reactions then Mercury is a great opportunity to sit on the side lines and witness, taking deep breaths and surrendering to the chaos, if we haven’t mastered our reactions or if you are like me, and I “semi” gotta grip on it all, stepping in a pile of “Mercury pooh” is a total bummer and something that I do! ha,ha…

Here’s what happened to me, last week Lee and I flew to Vero Beach Florida for 3 days.  He had some possible business ventures to look at and we thought it would be nice for us to spend 3 days without kids and just hang.  It’s really tricky being 3 different people (not including all of my characters) I’m a Mother, A Wife and Mee!  Each one of these folks needs attention, and different types of attention.  My girls need love, affection, explanation, protection, my husband needs partnership, humor, friendship, affection, compassion and my focus separate from babies.  Then there is MEE, I need private alone time, noone talking, no rubbing of backs, no preparing food, no building of confidences – just serious wall-staring – mind blanking alone time.

That’s really who I am, private (I know this is hard to imagine the way that I open up to you all out there in blog world) but in truth I gots to get my Mee fix…

To say the least I was torn leaving the girls, wanting to work in my office and knowing that my marriage is a priority.  Tuesday morning rolled around and my girls had a tummy virus and I wasn’t feeling so hot, NOT KNOWING what to do and feeling torn I headed out the door with Lee, leaving my girls with their favorite over night Nanny “Faber” and Alma my house helper.

How did my trip go?  Well, to an outsider my trip was a bummer – I spent 3 days in my room sleeping, watching TV and reading a new book “The Lace Reader”.  I left a couple of times to walk out on the beach and sit with Lee.  This was a dream vacation!!!!!

I hadn’t realized how tired I was!  Little kids don’t sleep and if they do sleep I don’t..I have serious Mommy radar, each creek and crack in the night I open my eyes to check.  However, knowing that they were out of my radar I SLEPT!!!

WOW, it felt great!!!

The magical part of the trip is that this is only the 3rd time we’ve left the girls, meaning only our 3rd time alone together in 7 years!!!

By the end of the 3rd day the space that builds between two people that have young kids was alleviated and it was nice to just be us Mee and Lee – not mommy and daddy.  yes, it was tough – I crave my kids when we are apart, however I’m beginning to understand the value of maintaining my individuality and the benefit of their witnessing of it. So you see Mercury went retrograde, I gotta a tummy virus and instead of fighting it I surrendered and took advantage of the rest time!!

That is my recommendation for this weeks astrological storm, if your computer goes down, be inventive and find away around it, if the car breaks – take a deep breath and enjoy a colorful bus ride!  We seep so much energy fighting things – just maybe things go awry to show us what we can’t see?

This weekend we had house guests, my great friend Iva, who is an amazing photographer and creative muse! Check out her photo blog here!!!

Also one of Lee’s producer buddies from LA was here working on a project..the house was busy and alive.  I finally got my suitcase emptied out only to fill it tonight, as we are all leaving in the morning for NYC and then upstate NY, where we will spend time with our treasured family Friend Nechung Kuten -la – The Oracle of Tibet and to the Dali Lama…this is a long story how we have come to know him, or should I say how Isabella and he have know each other for many life times.