Listen to “Diamonds are a girl’s best friends” by Marilyn Monroe:

I spent the weekend cleaning out closets and sifting through papers, when I wasn’t doing this I was cuddled up reading a book or watching a movie – I LOVED – Miss Potter- the story about Beatrix Potter..I needed inspiration and a few days away from my writers mind.  I’ve been pushing a project and dang we all know that when you push…you gets NOTHING.

The fact is that Winter Solstice was making it’s way – it is here today and to me the Winter Solstice is about marking the time of the imagination…Happy Son Of My People says it also about finding our inner light and shining it bright.

So, I’ve been trying to set the tone for the next couple of months and go deep inside uncovering all that hides. This reflective behavior has me watching the clock – not the actual one on the wall, but the one that records all the Mee’s I’ve been.  I guess Facebook has a lot to do with this; finding new peeps from old times stirs that pot that says “Wow, really, has it been that long?”  Then the soup of time reveals all the different ingredients that it’s taken to get me here – to Mee.

One of the characters that I have been in the past and have to be mindful of so she doesn’t rear her not-so-cute head is “Prada Is My Life.”  She is all about stuff and using it as band-aids.  You know this girl well, she is covered in fabulous gear and truly believes that if she is perfect and dripping in labels that no one will see how she aches and bleeds on the inside, I mean ’cause she totally believes her own lies and spends every dime to drip in designer digs.  I just knew that if I made it on the outside that the inside would heal, ha,ha…All those labels just made it even harder for me to see Mee.

For sure “Prada Is My Life” done did sprouted from the womb of “Hi I’m Not Enough.”

Christmas time brings “Prada Is My Life” to table for most of us.  I’m still tempted to over shop and buy folks way too much stuff, but now that I’m settling into life with open eyes, I catch myself as I reach for the Gucci & Pucci.  I also peep myself when I’m feeling down and out and the mall calls, I head home and cook something new.

This year is the first year we will all be together; we being Lee, his two grown girls, their kids, husbands and men folks, and my sister and her son.  Lee and I have been together over 8 years and I guess it’s taken this long to make it happen.  I’m really excited, it’s not always been an easy path combing a family especially when you’re the younger wife and going out folks can’t tell at times who’s a daughter and who’s not.  I sort of have fun with it, OK we all do now.  Conventional families are great and good fo’you if you’ve got one.  Maybe in my next life I will be normal too – however I wouldn’t bet on it ’cause this crew is pretty good and creates a mean sauce come party time.

I’m most siked to bring my Momma and my Grandma into the house via the kitchen we are going to make Grandma’s sauce and I’m going to make my version of it ” a tomato free marinara – it’s bangin!  Instead of a tomato you use a beet and ume boshi vinegar – you see the tomato’s are too acidic for me.  Once again I’ve a got something new to learn and ya’ll know – that’s inspiration fo’me.

Most of my life I tried like mad to avoid winter, moving far from it’s gray skies and closed windows; however it’s most poignant that I’m here in this time of healing my body.  I guess I’ve got to embrace all that has built me and create new winter experiences.  Something unique has actually occurred health wise; my memories of the cold were always full of freezing to the bone, I could NEVER handle the cold.  No exaggeration here, it just seemed to get into my spinal cord and gnaw away like a puppy with a piece of raw hide.  Last year when I went to see Happy Son Of My People (Gil Ben Ami) for the first time, I ached with pain and shivered like a wet puppy.  Now that I’m eating seasonally, resting, balancing my sugar and lowering my over all inflammation…my body is handling the cold!!!

I actually enjoy breathing in the crisp air for the first time ever ever ever in my life!!!  On top of this, I just read that when our hormones, inflammation and diets are balanced, our bodies can handle temperature/climates regardless!  This is a sign of good health!!!! Oh, one more thing: my hands are warm all the time – my circulation is pumping to a regular beat, baby!

So as I still struggle with occasional tummy aches and symptoms, I am really understanding that healing your body with foods is a process, one that takes a great bit of time – so, as I said I’ve been watching the clock and what I KNOW is that time is moving regardless, I might as well pass it with healing foods and see where it takes me.

What I want for Xmas is what I’m getting-  my family….I can’t wait to see my sister tomorrow morning!