I drove to my office this morning listening to a sermon on a local Christian radio station (i’m an inspiration junkie). The preacher was talking about Doubting Thomas – one of my most favorite characters from the bible – favorite ’cause I’ve got my own level of Doubting Mee going on from time to time. Not unlike Thomas I too have lived and experienced miracles – everyday miracles like the birth of my children, reclaiming my health with real food i.e. GODS food, listening to the sound of the ocean is a miracle – and yet I still can find myself doubting the magic of life, and the possibilities that a human life is presented.
Doubting Thomas walked with Christ and witnessed first hand the miracles and he too found himself doubting, each time he doubted he separated from his faith. I notice that my doubt grows when I isolate – and I can isolate.
January 25th through February 12th my house was full of “My People” as three rounds of house guests rolled through my house – back to back. Lastly was my sister who showed up with her sleeves pushed up and ready to rock. She stepped into my kitchen and got her COOK on, cleaning and taking care of my girls like no one else could. I slipped into a comfy spot with her and once she left I had a hard time getting back in the game. Dang, running a house hold, working & keeping up with life should NEVER be done the way we do it here in this country – isolated. I KNOW we were meant to live in female communities much like biblical times ( read The Red Tent) and Meso-American cultures.
Once all of “my people” left I got caught in the inner world of Mee and found it harder and harder to reach outside of myself. February in particular is a tricky month, regardless of where one lives, our human bodies are in sync with the solstice and winter is a time to spend indoors, processing & cooking thick rich Stews & soups, dreaming up our next incarnation.
I’ve spent Feb.’s in the jungle, in the Ohio Tundra, NYC winters, deep south freezes and now on the Malibu coast – each February I find myself in the depths of a rabbit hole – craving the next, pushing through the winter soil of myself yearning to bust a bright bulb above ground.
So here I am heading into Spring, gearing up for the next….
My next is a big one, I’ve been away from PKIA building a new website which will bloom in sync with the Tulips – my most favorite flower. This website comes after a bit of break up with my alter ego Princess Know It All. You see I returned from Nashville in January feeling the need to shed my skin and head in a new direction. I told Lee one afternoon, “Lee I feel like I’m breaking up with PKIA.” His response, “Are you kidding me? You are just getting started.” “Nope, watch life is going to take me somewhere else.”
A week later I had a few meetings regarding PKIA and sho’nuff a new direction for PKIA and myself came rolling down the red carpet. I can’t give too many details as I’m now in development with Princess Know It All, but energetically I feel liberated – like I did it, I built her as big as I could and it’s time for me to give her a name and send her off to school, don’t worry I’m not turning my back on her it’s just time for her to take an even bigger life on- after all I’m NOT Princess Know It All – I’m Mee Tracy McCormick and I can stand on my own two feet as she no longer needs my teat. I’ve gotten clear about where I want my focus to roll and it’s all about A Real Food Life and building a community that shares the same faith as I do when it comes to food.
Last week I held a Noble Food Makeover here in Malibu and it was proof that I’m heading in the right direction as we truly created A Community Kitchen.
I was totally blown away by the attendance of so many people – here in Malibu I actually have to roll folks to a waiting list as our Community Kitchen fills up within a day of announcing the class. More than half of the folks that attended this time are parents from the girls school and they are TOTALLY 100% on board for the school food program – which I am beginning next week. Yep I’m GOING IN!
At one point I got quiet, listening to the room - people chopping, stirring, giggling, connecting and sharing secrets. A tear rolled down my cheek as I remembered those lonely days of sitting at a table by myself in Nashville eating to save my life – they are over – I now have community in Nashville & Malibu and a platform to reach into the world so that NO one suffers alone left in isolation feeding their minds doubt.
I invite you to Come with me on this next journey, I’m no longer thinking about the final destination but the magic of the road ahead of me. ’Cause one thing I do know is it’s fixn’ to be a big adventure!
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